From RAPTURE

… She had learned that when you believe everything a man tells you, y ou are lining yourself up for a direct hit of disappointment and heartbreak, so it was best not to believe certain grand pronouncements.

But she was human.

And there was still an unjaded place in her self that allowed the slight tiny possibilty that what he was saying might turn out to be real and that this might, in fact, be big.

…You never knew when the big thing might happen.
It might happen anythime.

…(That it would happen was a given. You never heard anyone say, ‘You know what? In some lives the big thing just happens. Some live simply miss it.’ No, the big thing was like death,it happened to everyone.)…

(written June 9, 2009 - from Multiply site)

Its not that

Its not the religion. It’s one’s faith.

Its not the wrongs done but the help offered.

Its not what others sees but what’s there inside.

You see, everyone’s vulnerable to evil.
We commit mistakes, some resist the temptation some gave in to it.

But can you say someone’s bad just because he made a move inaccordance to what you believe is right?

We live and grew up in different environment, we have our own beliefs and custom ways of living our own life. Although, we are molded in someway due to the putrid reaction of the society, this maybe passers-by, colleagues, loved ones, relatives, & friends; on our management and administrative skills applied on ourselves. It seems as if they knew better than us in almost every aspect of our life.

Its quite annoying though quite touching and sweet sometimes.

The fact is they see whats bad in you and tend to emphasize it at some point making it a big deal.

The myth is they live cleaner and purer life than you do, the very reason they bother other people’s lives.

And a very reasonable fact is they cannot annoy and fool you unless you let them do.

You aren’t perferct and so nobody else is.

(written June 9, 2009 - from Multiply site)

Sometimes it hurts. Sometimes it really does.

There are things in life that are to be forgotten. Maybe yes, or not really at all.

History affects the present. And as philosophers say –history repeats itself; not only when it comes to country’s economical status and warfare but as well as to life’s aspects such as love.

We cannot deny the fact that there is ’someone’ in our someone else’s life just before us. ‘Someone’ who had made our better half’s life colorful and meaningful just like what we are doing now. Someone whom our better half had cared before, fetched, visited regularly, kissed and hugged, shared a blanket with, loved and just maybe — is still loving.

The last statement could be right or is definitely wrong.

Idle moments, being away form your better half, having no communication, meeting your better half’s past ’someone’ –face-to-face, seeing pictures of, come across the net through whatever social network it maybe– creates a kind of electric sensation that takes away your breath in a second or two. It hinders blood flow and may generate anxiety, shyness, envy, jealousy, paranoia, and worse is the feeling of hopelessness that you may never be like her and may never ever be at par of what that ’someone’ did to make your better half once happy. In some cases, you may be so conscious of yourself, thinking that that ’someone’ is half past physically advance than you are. The gravest of all is you try to become like that ’someone’ in someway — this maybe concsious or unconscious to you as it stabs ones ego.

But you weren’t sure for you haven’t asked you better half if that ’someone’ still occupies a part of his fist-sized-blood-pumping organ. Who dares to ask anyway?

The premise is that your better half once loved that person and you are just but afraid that things get tangled ending to them being together again.

No. Its not your better half’s fault. No. Its not one’s casualty that you come across that feeling once or twice. Its just but normal to be insane once in a while. But you cannot deny the fact turts. IT really does a grave wound sometimes.

(written May 11, 2009 - Multiply site)

'Minsan oo'. 'Minsan hindi', sabi nga ni Jo..

When your idle, you sort of think of having yourself some adventure. Involving into a game of wits and fun. Putting anything at stake just to be happy for a moment or two...or maybe forever. 

Forever isnt true for it is unquantifiable. Well, that is what I've read from a quote last night. Do you believe in 'forevers'? 

'Minsan oo. Misan hindi.' sabi nga ni Jo. Maybe yes, maybe no depending on what topic your pertaining to. But one thing is for sure. Nothing ends. People do come and go. But it doesn't mean that they left you for good. No, its not the end .As long as you keep them in your hearts they stay alive. With color, breathing and keeping you company for the rest of your life. They may have been somewhere else, physically absent but they've left you a part of their soul and that is whats guiding you today. Lessons learned through out the time that theyre still here, still loving you, still sharing a part of them with you. 

No, its not the end. A part of what you are today is a product of your nurtured relationship with them long time ago. They may have loved you trully, madly, deeply. They may have hurt you. They may have swindled you, laughed at you, do you harm. Some may have cared but just have to leave, for reasons we may or may not want to accept. But have you been thankful? For all those hurts and pains? Joys and euphoria? Because you cant be you without them. They shaped who you are now. 

Thank you for those who have hurt me. You thaught me lessons. You thaught me how to fight. You thaught me how to stand on my own feet, how to be strong. Thank you for the pains,pangs, wounds. These are marks that made my life's journey full of adventure, full of fun.

Thank you for those who have cared and loved me. You sure are kind. You thaught me to do things in the light of what makes me happy. You taught me how to mirror the loved that youve given me; to reflect that light of joy to others.

Forevers? 

We carry a part of everyone that crosses our way. And our personality that is an incomplete puzzle should be accomodating to be patched up by future comrades,foes and friends. And thus at the end of the day we can be complete. Full of wisdom, full of love. Never of hatred, never of revenge. Always happy, always smiling.






(writtten October 27, 2008 - from Multiply site)

We make them believe

jet victa sent me this message and I want you to ponder on it:

...In a world where almost everyone you meet is a jerk, you know you don't need to be serious. Hang out, pretend and play with them. Have fun and stop anytime. No attachments. No commitments. No pain. Convenient isn't it? But at the end of the show, you know your still yearning for something genuine. You realize that what you really look forward to is someone who can look at you straight into the eye and tell you he/she loves you.Someone who's worth every risk of pain. Someone who will stay...

It is something more than flirting and hanging out with people whom you want to play your feelings with. It is a lot different from the  fun and craziness you get from those porn dogs and etcheetche.

Sometimes we are fond of getting through someones private lives. We listen and give advices. We keep in touch, we show care and concern, we make  them believe that they are special...so special. And not so long we leave them desperate for that love-like-promises. We make them cry and give them lotsa 'dose of insomnias'. We leave them hanging.

We are afraid of what other people will say; and that gives us the reason to hide everything, to deny what we have started. We are so cautious of the putrid reaction of everyone around us and that we leave that piteous someone hurt.






(written June 1, 2007 - from Multiply site)


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Having it the second time seems sweeter..

I have 5 more minutes to do this blog. Yes, I am in a hurry..
Its 5 to 4pm and I'll be off from work, yet my seat just started to get hot.
I really don't know why once more I'm caught in this wide world of putting into words the things that is running in my mind..well maybe it is because of him..
A good friend of mine, a colleague at work, a geek student, a wise person, a very intelligent one in deed, assisted and inspired me to open up this horizon the second time around.
Well, I guess this would be a good start of something new.. " Everyday is a turning point"...