Sometimes it hurts. Sometimes it really does.

There are things in life that are to be forgotten. Maybe yes, or not really at all.

History affects the present. And as philosophers say –history repeats itself; not only when it comes to country’s economical status and warfare but as well as to life’s aspects such as love.

We cannot deny the fact that there is ’someone’ in our someone else’s life just before us. ‘Someone’ who had made our better half’s life colorful and meaningful just like what we are doing now. Someone whom our better half had cared before, fetched, visited regularly, kissed and hugged, shared a blanket with, loved and just maybe — is still loving.

The last statement could be right or is definitely wrong.

Idle moments, being away form your better half, having no communication, meeting your better half’s past ’someone’ –face-to-face, seeing pictures of, come across the net through whatever social network it maybe– creates a kind of electric sensation that takes away your breath in a second or two. It hinders blood flow and may generate anxiety, shyness, envy, jealousy, paranoia, and worse is the feeling of hopelessness that you may never be like her and may never ever be at par of what that ’someone’ did to make your better half once happy. In some cases, you may be so conscious of yourself, thinking that that ’someone’ is half past physically advance than you are. The gravest of all is you try to become like that ’someone’ in someway — this maybe concsious or unconscious to you as it stabs ones ego.

But you weren’t sure for you haven’t asked you better half if that ’someone’ still occupies a part of his fist-sized-blood-pumping organ. Who dares to ask anyway?

The premise is that your better half once loved that person and you are just but afraid that things get tangled ending to them being together again.

No. Its not your better half’s fault. No. Its not one’s casualty that you come across that feeling once or twice. Its just but normal to be insane once in a while. But you cannot deny the fact turts. IT really does a grave wound sometimes.

(written May 11, 2009 - Multiply site)